Resilience

My mama taught me to be resilient. She was a single mother with three little girls and pushed two jobs for a long time. And my faith in Jesus Christ and God my Father fuels my resilience.

I'm in the surgery waiting room right now. The hubby is in surgery. January 3rd at 10pm he left to go push some snow. He was so happy. He smiled as he left and walked away saying, "Te gusta que soy trabajador verda'??" Like always a big macho man, protector and provider. 

He called me a couple hours later at 12:16am while I was in bed and he said he was confused and didn't feel well and didn't know where he was. He repeated, he didn't feel well and then added his head hurt. I thought immediately-STROKE. I told him to wait there and that I'd call the ambulance. That night he was diagnosed in the ER with TGA Transient Global Amnesia. The MRI image also found three bright glowing dots diagnosed as three brain tumors. Not one. Not two. THREE! THREE TUMORS :(

It still sounds unreal and I haven't verbalized this with many people (it hurts more to verbalize it) but it's happening and it's real and here I am in the surgery waiting room now.

As I think about other emotional mountains I have climbed and about the power of faith that opens the conduit to heavenly miracles-I am comforted and I know He is in charge. 

In particular, the words and scriptures shared by President Russell M.Nelson from April 2021 General Conference talk has helped me, titled, Christ Is Risen; Faith in Him Will Move Mountains:

"The Lord does not require perfect faith for us to have access to His perfect power. But He does ask us to believe."

"Your mountains may be loneliness, doubt, illness, or other personal problems. Your mountains will vary, and yet the answer to each of your challenges is to increase your faith. That takes work...To do anything well requires effort." 

He continues by giving five suggestions to develop faith:

• Study scriptures-"the more you learn about the Savior, the easier it will be to trust in His mercy, His infinite love, and His strengthening, healing, and redeeming power. The Savior is never closer to you than when you are facing or climbing a mountain with faith"
• Choose to believe in Jesus Christ-"take 
• Act in faith
• Partake of sacred ordinances
• Ask Heavenly Father for help

....He's out of surgery...all went well...only a needle biopsy not an open biospy...

I know this road will be a long one but I will celebrate the moments I'm given. Amen!! God is Great!!!!